Monday, March 5, 2012
I am there for you….
It’s been 8 years since I know HIM. It was 2003 when I joined his college and placed my shaky faith on him. From then on I felt him guiding me every moment. I say it with full conviction that I started observing a divine force within me after getting into his fold. Not that I gave way to my belief on HIM without any doubt or question or resistance. But every roadblock to heart was knocked out when the mystique experiences left no option but to believe the OMNISCIENT MOTHER.
Let me narrate one such experience that washed all doubts dwelling my mind.
I was a bright student and was always in the bracket of 80+ scorers. Hence, never wondered it would happen to me. It was June 2006 and graduation results were out and guess what! I flung in one subject. It was a tough time for me. Never had I had a backlog in my academic history. Shame was killing me within. There was no peace of mind. I was home and in great distress. Parents too were upset. That night is still very clear in my memory screen. Father was out for his evening walk. My mother and I had a big argument over some small issue, after which she went out to market. I was alone feeling miserable cursing my fate and entertaining the notion that nobody on this earth understands me. I went to the altar and chided Swami for putting me in such trouble. After half an hour conversation, I finally spoke these words: “LEST YOU COME AND LET ME KNOW THAT YOU ARE THERE FOR ME BY THE END OF THE DAY, I WILL STOP BELIEVING YOU.” I knew what I said and was somewhat determined though my love for HIM ached some nerve of mine.
I got up presuming confidently that nothing would happen for I am no one and nobody special to get the LORD’S individual attention. I was standing near my bed when somebody tapped my left shoulder. I turned swiftly. The portion of the ground where my eyes fell, I saw a heap of cement colored powder. I was aghast!!! I tasted it to confirm what my mind and heart resisted believing. It was VIBHUTI.
You might have heard people talk of the 'miracles' ; of My 'making' this, and 'giving' that, of My fulfilling your wants, of My curing your illnesses. Of course I confer on you these boons of health and prosperity, but only so that you might, with greater enthusiasm and with less interruption, proceed with spiritual sadhna.
--Sathya Sai Baba
I was overwhelmed. HE responded to me. HE was hearing to me all the time, my blaming, ferocious, scolding, regretting and warning tone!! But HE replied to me very calmly with this experience pressing on my mind ”I am there for you.” I realized I have my LORD as closer to me as my shadow.
My affection and love for you is that of a thousand mothers.
-Sathya Sai Baba
Sathya Sai Baba is my inspiration, the-bliss-factor of my life, and the best friend one can have. I do not have the intellect to grasp who he is but I have recognized that he is someone whom I would love to have by my side in this life and further.
The divine mother’s love is omnipresent and encompassing this universe.
Whoever you are, you are Mine. I will not give you up. Wherever you are, you are near Me; you cannot go beyond My reach."
I am extremely grateful to have Swami in my life.